Little House of Walkers

So I'm trying a new, fun template and can't figure out how to customize it a little more...AAAAH! Very frustrating.  I want to put my own pictures in the 3 little frames that headline my page. And I can't find the spell check. For now, it is what it is.

Today was a normal day, at home with Noah. Took Megan to school, she had to walk through the snow. Since she didn't have snow boots on, she had to take her boots off to let them dry when we got inside. Then she sat in the middle of the hallway for no reason. Then I stuck my foot in my mouth when I was talking to her teacher. Then I took my foot out of my mouth and left. Came home, played with Noah, tried to work with him on numbers. Got to number 4 today. That's a pretty good day. Then did some more everyday, normal, too boring to post stuff or "stups" as Megan says.

That's all I had to say about that. Good Night!

...Rachel was in the hospital fighting for her life. This has been a really hard week for us this year. We have felt as depressed as we did when she died. After family had all gone home and we were left to an empty, silent house. Motionless. Nothing mattered. Nothing could take away the pain we felt. Not even each other. The feeling where you can't move. You don't know what to do. Hour to hour living, sometimes minute to minute. We would come home and eat dinner in silence, tears running down my cheeks. I told Brandon how I was feeling the other day and that night he said he felt depressed too. It didn't occur to me that this was the week that Rachel was in the hospital until this morning. Not that I need a reason to feel this way, but I do attribute it to this. I also feel bad or guilty maybe for not putting anything on her grave site this Holiday Season. This was the first time in 5 years that I haven't done this. I thought about her and talked to her and explained to her how sorry I was for not going. Honestly, I didn't have the money and didn't make the time. It has been a busy couple of weeks. Usually I make/take a wreath or put a tree up for her. This year I was not motivated whatsoever. I'm kind of glad I didn't so I wouldn't do it just out of guilt. I want it to be real from my heart, not just because I feel I need to. Anyway, Rachel, I still have tears for you that are hidden deep down. Today, they tried to surface, but with 2 little siblings of yours requiring my constant attention, I kept it in. I didn't want to make them sad. My tears are tears of sadness but my heart is filled with love for you knowing you are looking down on us. I thought about you a lot this Christmas. I thought about how much fun you would have with your sister and brother...jumping in the trampoline. Right now I'd like to think you are jumping on a trampoline of clouds but that's not doing it for me right now. I love you Little One. P.S. Your sister is watching UP (a really cute movie that you would like) for the 2nd time today. We watch this at least 3 times a day.

So I have been wanting to paint our bedroom now for 6 years. I'm just now motivated and have Brandon on board (I know, he's a little slow on these things). In my quest to paint our bedroom, I'm trying to decide what color. It's time for a new comforter, so I thought I'd start there to find a color. Every time I'm in a store that carries comforters, I usually head in that department and check them out. Since we are broke as a joke right now, I can't just get ANY comforter I want. They are so dang expensive. We have a queen size bed, but it sits a little high, so I have to have a King size comforter to fit to my standards. So I was in Kohl's and found....a pillow! Perfect, now I found my wall paint color (from a color on the pillow). Now to find a comforter to go with it. I was at Wal-Mart and found a very simple corduroy comforter (Yeah, I don't usually like corduroy, but this one caught my eye). THAT'S IT! Even better...it was only $34! (I know, right?). I was a little sketchy about it since all the sizes were listed as $34, but when I checked out, it was still $34 + tax. Usually, you pay an extra $10 or so for a bigger size. Anyway, I'm so proud of my comforter. It's very simple and very inexpensive and very comfortable. Now, to get the room painted. My new comforter - That's the pillow... I'm thinking the Tiffany(ish) blue color or steel gray? Close-up view